why my mother is the best mother in the world

do you have a favorite hero? if you do, then who is it? if it's in a cartoon, my heroes would be sailor moon. but if it's in a real life, then my hero is my own mother. yes, she is my superhero and i really wanna be like her. a mother is the name for God in the lips and hearts of little children. and my mother is of course a very extraordinary one because besides she's a career woman she's also a loving and caring mother. my mom, she is not lady like she's far from that. simply also not like the other mothers who've got lots of times to go shopping and make themselves look pretty all the time. she's just not that type of woman for sure. she doesnt care if she has dry skin on her foot, if all her nails look awful, if her hair is short like a boy, if people talk something bad about her, if she goes out wearing only t-shirt and jeans all the time also with no make up, if she goes to a party wearing the same clothes she wore last week, if she never bring a purse everywhere she goes, if she's not smell like a walking flower. she is just the perfect plain mother who work very hard to earn money and make all the family members happy. as far as i know, she is the most cohesive person i've ever met in my entire life because she never gives up to anything as if she always has a dream to chase. and i admire her very very much.

she wakes up every day every morning to pack all the selling clothes and then she's off to work. well she owns a clothing shop and has been taken care of it for quite a really really long time. i guess it's been 20 years or even more. yes she's an impressive leader with a highly regarded mind and spirit. she is a good model for every hard working mother because she proved that all women dont need to fear even a bit feelings of being independent. she's the one who taught me that to be independent is not as scary as it looks because if we know the key which are strength and self confidence, we'll do great. not only she's an amazing career woman, she's also a wonderful mother fully because although she is so busy with her work she's still mantaining some time to talk to us, go out and eat ice cream and care for our simple needs.

she's also a loving wife. she has a good heart and she's showing it to us by never complaining if she's the one who always have to go to work. im so lucky to have a mother like her in my life. all i wanna learn about being a good bestfriends, good leader, good mother is all in her. she's totally shining and make an outstanding mother compare to others. and yeah she might not be the coolest mom or the most stylish mom ever but that's not very much essential because she is just far more precious than all that trashy stuffs. her self-character is what most women do have to learn.

why my father is the best father in the world

what is a father to us? is he just a person who care for you since you were a baby or is he meant something a lot more than that? before anything else, my dad is not like the other common dad who are always off to work every morning and dont do the household work. my dad on the other hand is a decent man who just chose to stay at home and do the househusband things, if that's what a proper word to use-househusband. anyway, he is an adorable man who really love his kids and wanting to spare lots of his times taking care of the kids. my father is an angel sent from heaven.

he makes breakfast (fish/beef porridge with eggs on it-chicken fried rice-vegetables soup-omelette-etc), lunch (blackpepper beef-chicken soup- char kway teow-drunken chicken-wonton noodle soup-hainan chicken rice-butter fried chicken-prawn&mushrooms-sweet&sour fried fish-rendang-fish meatballs-beef tofu-steamed oyster crab-seaweed soup-pork chop-yellow chicken soup- red chicken soup-corn soup-fried shrimp in butter-shark's fin soup-etc etc), dinner. he also can make soya milk, medicine soup, chinese health tea. he cuts fruits for us, cooks for us, supervises our behaviour and makes jokes with us. Although he often get angry, but i know he never stop loving us because we are what's important for him the most. it's amazing to have a dad like him because we know it seldom to have a dad who can cook lots of foods and actually care to ask us what food we wanna eat that day and also for the next. he would also picked us up from school, take us to the tutor school afterwards, buy us lots of bread and food. he just doesnt want us to get hungry and he doesnt like too see us skinny because he cares about our health. he sacrifices his ego so we can get whatever we want. everytime we wanna buy something unimportant, he would jabbered a lot but in the end he always gives us the money. he always tells us that as a family we have to look for each other, sincere each other and protect each other as well. also to never get envy, mad, or do injustice to each other. he's just really a good man who wants us to love each other in the family with no boundaries. he is also the one who come to the parents meeting in my school, gets to meet my teacher and take my annual report. he also helps my mom in her clothing shop, so he sometimes take care of two or three things together and never complaining. i know he's not perfect, he must be tired too especially since he opened wallet bird nest business out of town his schedule becomes more tight. but he still cares and still bother to ask us about small things we've been doing lately. those are only little things he does to make his family happy but it does work like magic. we feel his love and the love grows even bigger than before. man! i just feel so blessed to have a dad like him. now that he's old and time keeps on moving i would like to capture every moment together with him because i know what will matters most is the memory that we're gonna keep forever.

my 20th birthday wishlists

cant believe im turning 20 tomorrow. and my birthday wish lists so far are:

1. Pommier - Balenciaga bag


2. Blackberry Bold



3. Melissa's jelly shoes

women and men

most women are impulsive. they tend to listen what their heart is trying to tell them and believe me the results are not always good. in fact, it almost never do any good for us. women are easily affected and sometimes we just wanna forget or pretend to forget that we have some logic that would probably help us out from a disaster we might caused if doing what our heart tells. we just like to play around so dangerously even if we know that we might get hurt.

are we women insane or what? we just took whatever chances we've got merely to pull ourselves closer to that guy while that guy might not feels the same way about us. but we dont really care do we? as long as we are passing our signs to him correctly we'll do just fine. yeah dats what we often think about how relationship will work. but these isn't just the thing i wanna discuss over here anyway. i am more concern about how we're gonna handle the situation when the guy we have a crush on is just not into us. when the guy we like doesn't like us back then it will be a complete misery. i've experienced such things before and it feels completely awful. but the thing that i really don't get is why almost all woman just couldn't be honest when giving advice to their friends.

when i was having such a terrible love stake about guys, my friends would support me by telling "well maybe he's just... this... and.. that..." and i was just stood in silence and pretended she was right about the whole thing, but actually deep down in my heart i know that all the things she said is nonsense. the guy is just not into me! dat's it. that's the right answer. it's as simple as that. sometimes i hate why women couldn't be brave enough to embrace their sad friends and to tell the truth about what they're really thinking.

yes i know that most of women don't wanna hurt their own best friends by telling the truth, i dont know whether you are the type of woman who just couldn't bear the truth or not, but i could convince you that im not that kind of woman! i want people to tell me the truth even if it hurts so bad! i need the truth because dat's what will help me to move on otherwise i'll be stuck thinking about him and will never let him go because im still giving my hopes up towards him who doesnt even care about me.

 i dont know when these not-telling-the-truth tradition will stop but i really wanna change it particularly because it's not helping each other. women think too much about love. we're just too innocent to see what will men do if they're the one who have a crush on us because we're too busy trying and hoping that it might actually work. well i am as weak as the other women when it comes to love, but ive learnt that it's better not to be needy. i know it's killing both you and me. but please try not to be weak when you're head over heels.

fairy tales and their happy ending

whom from all of you that ever dislike the story of all time princesses in Disney? it was every girl's dream to be one of them, to have a life that look like them, and of course have a very happy endings in the end of their life. the more i think about how perfect disney's life stories could be, the more i wanna throw up. there's no such thing as happy ending people! wake up and don't be too optimistic about how you would end up be in love and be loved by someone who you truly love. i hope you get what i mean. yes life is for quite some time is perfect nevertheless it won't be perfect forever if you know what i mean. there must be some troubles coming and not all of us could survive because ironically every bits of another troubles could definitely change our perception about life. i'm not only talking about love but also about other bullshits about life. i just learnt something today to not put too much hopes on something you really wish for because it's too dangerous. it's consuming our trust and is going to leave a permanent mark if it turns out to be such a very disappointment for you in the end. so whatever you hope for or you long for just don't put too much hopes because once you is betrayed, there will be no ways to fix the miscalculation. so yeah basically i hate the stories of disney's princesses, they are only real in fiction and since now and then i won't trust those magical dusts that according to the kingdom of Disney can forever change our life.

to father and mother

i've been sitting for hours, thinking and feeling so heavyhearted that i am such an ungrateful child who just want everything and do anything i like without even bother about their feelings. today was just like the other day, normal and gent. things that was different is the way i see them because it seems that i was incompetent to open my eyes and see the reality that they're getting a little too older now. when i saw my dad's white hair and his obvious seen wrinkle skin i was buttoned up and couldn't say anything aside from turning my heads down and looked away. it's a heartbroken and i wanted to change things to alter them into a younger living being without knowing how. the most distressing part is that i just realized that i was too busy fooling around and of course i dont wanna end up like not knowing my own parents and be one of those people who don't talk to their own families. this is not kidding but i honestly want to spend more times with them because i know i dont have lots of time anymore because soon it'd be too late to regret.

my ultimate dream cars

Land Cruiser 200 ZX 4.6

Nissan Fairlady 370 Z



BMW X6



E 350 Coupe


Audi TTS 2.0T FSI Quattro

this and that. whatever i do recently

i've been watching the mentalist for the sake of the jobless-years i have. it's a well watching tv series and im assuring you that you barely will get bored. basically it's about a group of detective who work for CBI in united states and they are such an amazing detective to say that they are solving every mystery murders they encountered. some say it's a cheesy series but so far i find it surprisingly cool. well it made me stay at home for two days straight what more shall i say?
also disturbingly i've been reading the book called the mysterious benedict society. it's an entertaining book for kids and yet i found it so interesting too. there's a fantasy here and there and will never need you to think hard on it. yet it's so full of good morality. i promise you will never hate this book.