friendship

everyone knows that building a friendship is easy, you can make friends with anyone and then hang out with them, laughing together and all. but you know what ive been thinking is that apparently friends who i can trust on sharing my pain about life is only a few. i know dat not everyone is a good listeners, in fact there are only few good listeners and billion of good talker.

i personally is the good listener, not to mention how many life stories, love life stories people been telling me. i've so many friends and many of them come to me and tell their wonderful life stories. some of them mind to asked me back about how im doing and stuffs, but some people are just dont care. well, its okay though. i like to hear stories and im glad if i can make them happy by only listening to their life stories.

however, there are times when instead of listen, i wanna talk... i wanna tell stories of mine too, especially when im down and need an emotional support too. one and a few times when they're asking me back about how im doing and when i wanna tell them that im not really okay, and then they're just gonna give flat comments and then go on with their stories again. as if what matters is only their problems, their life stories, and not mine.

it's exhausting. and im not the typical who can share all my feelings to any friends. i need to share it to those who i trust. but so many of them are just too busy talking of themselves. it makes me think that i can have so many close friends, but there are only few that really care. only few of friends who really want to know, or would like to know whether im doing okay, and helping me solve my problems.

i know which one will stay with me in the future even if im no one. ive learnt a lot that having so many friends doesn't guarantee your happiness. friends who dont wanna listen are friends for fun, and not friends for life.