ive been to new york once and i wanna come back there and explore more. i wanna go to summer school in nyc coz it might be so much fun. meeting new friends, having new environment around, etc etc. but the ticket is very expensive around $1,500 and i dont wanna ask my mom coz she might kill me u know. anyway, i wanna go there again next yer. so i gotta save sum money starting from now! eventhough i cant promise it dat i'll get the money by next yer. lol
its not a small money, not to mention i still got so many things to buy here. -__-
well well.. if i cant reach nyc, i wanna go to taiwan to learn mandarin.. i really wanna go there too because i like the language very much and ive never been there before. so it would be fun. see?! ive got so many plans already by now. not sure whether i'd accomplish all of it. hmm, i think its better to just hope for the best.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Saturday, May 22, 2010
friendship
everyone knows that building a friendship is easy, you can make friends with anyone and then hang out with them, laughing together and all. but you know what ive been thinking is that apparently friends who i can trust on sharing my pain about life is only a few. i know dat not everyone is a good listeners, in fact there are only few good listeners and billion of good talker.
i personally is the good listener, not to mention how many life stories, love life stories people been telling me. i've so many friends and many of them come to me and tell their wonderful life stories. some of them mind to asked me back about how im doing and stuffs, but some people are just dont care. well, its okay though. i like to hear stories and im glad if i can make them happy by only listening to their life stories.
however, there are times when instead of listen, i wanna talk... i wanna tell stories of mine too, especially when im down and need an emotional support too. one and a few times when they're asking me back about how im doing and when i wanna tell them that im not really okay, and then they're just gonna give flat comments and then go on with their stories again. as if what matters is only their problems, their life stories, and not mine.
it's exhausting. and im not the typical who can share all my feelings to any friends. i need to share it to those who i trust. but so many of them are just too busy talking of themselves. it makes me think that i can have so many close friends, but there are only few that really care. only few of friends who really want to know, or would like to know whether im doing okay, and helping me solve my problems.
i know which one will stay with me in the future even if im no one. ive learnt a lot that having so many friends doesn't guarantee your happiness. friends who dont wanna listen are friends for fun, and not friends for life.
i personally is the good listener, not to mention how many life stories, love life stories people been telling me. i've so many friends and many of them come to me and tell their wonderful life stories. some of them mind to asked me back about how im doing and stuffs, but some people are just dont care. well, its okay though. i like to hear stories and im glad if i can make them happy by only listening to their life stories.
however, there are times when instead of listen, i wanna talk... i wanna tell stories of mine too, especially when im down and need an emotional support too. one and a few times when they're asking me back about how im doing and when i wanna tell them that im not really okay, and then they're just gonna give flat comments and then go on with their stories again. as if what matters is only their problems, their life stories, and not mine.
it's exhausting. and im not the typical who can share all my feelings to any friends. i need to share it to those who i trust. but so many of them are just too busy talking of themselves. it makes me think that i can have so many close friends, but there are only few that really care. only few of friends who really want to know, or would like to know whether im doing okay, and helping me solve my problems.
i know which one will stay with me in the future even if im no one. ive learnt a lot that having so many friends doesn't guarantee your happiness. friends who dont wanna listen are friends for fun, and not friends for life.
Friday, May 21, 2010
updates
i almost forgot dat i have a blog page ;p
too many things happened in my life lately and i just cant seem to spill everything out in here coz i seriously can make a novel out of it.
now, im gonna tell the stories of my life, the progress of my so unpredictable life. first of all, im gonna spill you about my love life, since it's the dullest one. ha
well, ive got no one i like/love right now. it's not that i dont have any interest in guy, but i guess im just being too picky and i hated that. seriously, i hated the fact that im so picky and choosy and wanting everything to be perfect.
we all know that a perfect guy never truly exist. they just exist in a fairy tale, in a dream but not in a real life.. however the thing is im not looking for a perfect guy to complete my life. a perfect guy will just going to be a perfect disaster, so i dont want a perfect guy who has it all. i just want a man, a simple man who can give me a pure love, pure affection, not even with single stitch of love imperfection. i wont lie ive always wanted to get a good looking guy, but good looking, rich, dont really matter. what matters the most is their heart.
i want to own their heart, the whole of it. their heart is the only part that will stay the same forever. your body, your face, your wealth, it can change as the time goes by. but not with your heart, at least dat's the last you'll have that can stay the same forever.
i want to meet a man with a nice personality, who think of God, who learn to live by His life, and always remember Him whenever he's sad or happy.. he will never forget God. a man that will respect my parents, and older people more than anything in the world..
dats the man i want. does dat kind of man still exist? i dont know.. in this world full of greed, i dont know whether i can still find a man like that.
anyway, enough talking about me and my love life stories.
now i wanna share another stories.
i love my parents so much, and you know it right. my daddy is 68 years old, and he's old. like really old for me, he's starting to be pissed of anything.. mom said when people get old, they just become so sensitive, like a baby. and dats what i think my dad is encountering right now.
everytime i talk about my dad and my mom, i'll just burst into tears.
ive always imagined what if i lost them now, what im gonna do without them in my life, how can i survive without them, without their love. i just cant... and it hurts so bad just to imagine.. dats why i wanna take a good care of them, i wanna stay beside them as they grow older. i want to take them to walk, eat sumthing, have an ordinary weekend with them. spend quality time with them.
coz i know i dont have so much time, i cant make them happy by what ive become because im still no one, im not a successful person that can make them so proud of me. so the least i can give to them is my heart, my affection, my care to them.. that will complete everything. i want to be the first person who bring them medicine whenever they needed it. i want to protect them.
my simple wish in this life is to see my parents' happiness. it's so cliche i know. but is it what every single one of us wants in this life? to see our parents happy and far from problems and misery.
okay, we better change the topic now.
do you know i got a puppy now? his name is Sunday. and he is so cute and adorable!!
he's a mix of shitshu-maltese, and he's a very lazy dog and he eats a lot! i love him so so much!! :)
and everybody in this house loves him too, well except my dad. he hates Sunday so much, he never likes a dog. so he hates me too for bringing Sunday home. Im sorry daddy, but i cant just throw it a way and give it to sumbody.
i'll post his pict. here:
isnt he so cute? :D
anyway he's 5 months now and he's so big for his age.. ;p
i hope you enjoy his picture coz as u can see, he's looking at ya! :p
too many things happened in my life lately and i just cant seem to spill everything out in here coz i seriously can make a novel out of it.
now, im gonna tell the stories of my life, the progress of my so unpredictable life. first of all, im gonna spill you about my love life, since it's the dullest one. ha
well, ive got no one i like/love right now. it's not that i dont have any interest in guy, but i guess im just being too picky and i hated that. seriously, i hated the fact that im so picky and choosy and wanting everything to be perfect.
we all know that a perfect guy never truly exist. they just exist in a fairy tale, in a dream but not in a real life.. however the thing is im not looking for a perfect guy to complete my life. a perfect guy will just going to be a perfect disaster, so i dont want a perfect guy who has it all. i just want a man, a simple man who can give me a pure love, pure affection, not even with single stitch of love imperfection. i wont lie ive always wanted to get a good looking guy, but good looking, rich, dont really matter. what matters the most is their heart.
i want to own their heart, the whole of it. their heart is the only part that will stay the same forever. your body, your face, your wealth, it can change as the time goes by. but not with your heart, at least dat's the last you'll have that can stay the same forever.
i want to meet a man with a nice personality, who think of God, who learn to live by His life, and always remember Him whenever he's sad or happy.. he will never forget God. a man that will respect my parents, and older people more than anything in the world..
dats the man i want. does dat kind of man still exist? i dont know.. in this world full of greed, i dont know whether i can still find a man like that.
anyway, enough talking about me and my love life stories.
now i wanna share another stories.
i love my parents so much, and you know it right. my daddy is 68 years old, and he's old. like really old for me, he's starting to be pissed of anything.. mom said when people get old, they just become so sensitive, like a baby. and dats what i think my dad is encountering right now.
everytime i talk about my dad and my mom, i'll just burst into tears.
ive always imagined what if i lost them now, what im gonna do without them in my life, how can i survive without them, without their love. i just cant... and it hurts so bad just to imagine.. dats why i wanna take a good care of them, i wanna stay beside them as they grow older. i want to take them to walk, eat sumthing, have an ordinary weekend with them. spend quality time with them.
coz i know i dont have so much time, i cant make them happy by what ive become because im still no one, im not a successful person that can make them so proud of me. so the least i can give to them is my heart, my affection, my care to them.. that will complete everything. i want to be the first person who bring them medicine whenever they needed it. i want to protect them.
my simple wish in this life is to see my parents' happiness. it's so cliche i know. but is it what every single one of us wants in this life? to see our parents happy and far from problems and misery.
okay, we better change the topic now.
do you know i got a puppy now? his name is Sunday. and he is so cute and adorable!!
he's a mix of shitshu-maltese, and he's a very lazy dog and he eats a lot! i love him so so much!! :)
and everybody in this house loves him too, well except my dad. he hates Sunday so much, he never likes a dog. so he hates me too for bringing Sunday home. Im sorry daddy, but i cant just throw it a way and give it to sumbody.
i'll post his pict. here:
isnt he so cute? :D
anyway he's 5 months now and he's so big for his age.. ;p
i hope you enjoy his picture coz as u can see, he's looking at ya! :p
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