the only thing dat will make me cry till im running out of breath is when someone i really love and care about left me. i had this maid, she's unbelievably close with my family. she controls everything at my house and she cooks anything, she really is helpful. so 13 years working at my house has made her feel like she owns us. she's pretty much changed. but i know although she nags a lot, she still love my family and i know dat dat facts will never change.
so my mom let her go couple days ago because of some reasons, and today was her last day.
i dont know why.. i feel so sad rite now. i feel so empty and so lonely and i miss her already! i know dat she could be a huge pain in the ass, and also sumtimes there's moment when i wanna hit her and just push her to the street so dat she'll be hit by a car. but after all, she's to me is like part of the family so when i lose her its as if im losing one members of my family.
and it's agonizingly painful..
it's tearing me apart to see her go.... it's just hard.
when you have someone who lives under the same roof for 13 years and suddenly she's gone, everything will be different. sumthing is just missing.
im so weak i couldnt stand not to cry
and i just realized that i hate her just as much as i love her
and now i just want her back, although i know it will never happen again, not this time.
i now know that i just simply care about her
and now, im feeling as lonely as i can be
....
well, i just hope she'll do well in her life. ive learned that losing someone you really love, is just not fun! :'(
